Each of us is somebody!
Do you like who you are?
As messed up as some of my days are, and with some of the bullshit nonsense I deal with I’m still glad to be ME!
My life hasn’t been easy, but in comparison to others it hasn’t been hard either.
It is what it is…LIFE!
We all go through situations that can either make us stronger or crush us.
It’s up to each of us to make the decision what effect life will have on us.
Some grow up to be what their parents want them to be, some have goals of their own, some are simply free spirited and go with the flow…uncertain of their direction, but yet enjoying life as it comes at them.
Some become confident, secure, strong and embrace who they are.
Others…well, they rely on things to make them feel good or other people to make them feel safe.
That’s craziness.
That’s no way to live.
If you can’t be happy with who you are, then you’re really not experiencing true happiness.
What happens when others aren’t around to hold you up?
What happens when the things aren’t there (they get lost, stolen, fall apart)?
What then?
You’re an empty shell of a person.
If nothing else, people know I am who I am, say what I have to say and am real, genuine and ME.
Other people hide behind nice clothes, jewelry, fancy cars, big houses and yet they have no clue who they are.
I totally know who I am.
(even though others attempt to tell me who I am, when they in all actuality have no clue who I really am)
Are you asking what’s up with the hippie VW Vanagon?
Well, I’ll tell you…
Every summer my dad, brother and I used to travel…
drives from PA to anywhere in the states…including one year driving to Alaska (before the Alaska highway was even paved!)
Now, as y’all have probably already figured I was pretty much a black sheep and did whatever I wanted and never really gave after high school much thought.
I had dreamed of just hitting the road in a 68 Camaro or GTO with my dog (which I didn’t even have at the time, but figured I’d get me a big bad dog to travel with me lol).
Seeing the states and working doing odd/end jobs to get money to get to my next destination was my plan.
Not exactly the dream college/career path parents hope their child will take!
Needless to say, that’s not the path I took (not far from it on a smaller level though).
Instead, I hitch hiked from PA, ended up in FL after going through Indiana, Mississippi, Alabama (I do not suggest this means of travel now though).
I became a wife (thankfully that didn’t last long) then a single mother, then a mother again and now that my daughter has 3 more years of high school it got me thinking about what I’ll do when she’s off on her own.
Will I be a sad empty nester?
NOPE!
Will I miss her when she goes to college or whatever?
YES! DUH! OF.COURSE.I.WILL.
And, hey who knows maybe by then she’ll want to join me on my journey to travel the states!
(then on to England, Ireland, Australia, Greece, Rome, Italy and who knows where else)
But, in time, I plan on packing it up and hitting the road (at least for a year).
Traveling in a VW Vanagon.
I don’t have things and have minimal clothing so I’m sure everything I need could fit easily in a VW.
As long as I have internet, laptop, cell phone I should be good to go!
I can teach yoga classes as I go, do some hypnosis or weight coaching as I go and meet people in other locations or make money online and live off PayPal debit card?!
I could do odds/ends on a farm to get fresh veggies and fruit or pay.
I could do whatever….
The thing is this, I am me…
not dependent on things to make me feel like a fulfilled person.
I’d rather experience life than be held prisoner by things and other people who need to lift me up and boost my self esteem & confidence (I don’t need that-because in reality the majority of people around try to do complete opposite…trash me, tear me down).
Is this the ideal future that parents want for their child?
Who knows.
Most people do their traveling in between high school and college or after college and before family.
Well, I”m too old for that…have already lived those years.
So, my choice is do it in 3 or 4 years or don’t bother doing it.
I once had a dream of owning a totally sustainable environmentally friendly resort with multiple buildings, beach entry salt water pool, yoga building, kitchen, gardens, water features and more. It was going to be ideal. It was going to be LEED certified.
It was also going to cost about $6 MILLION.
Needless to say, that dream has been put on hold until I win the Lottery (hmmmm, I think I have to play it though to win it?!)
So, instead my plan is simple…
enjoy my daughter, enjoy life and experience life and what it holds…
Question of the day
Are you living the life you thought you would be?
Are you happy, I mean TRULY REALLY happy?
What would you do if you could do anything?
Are you being true to who you really are? or are you living your life for someone else?